I am surprised that I did not write any new-year-post last year. it's still hard to believe that we had come to the mid of January. Classes and activities make time passes even faster.

2010 was the year I turned 21.

I do not have in memory how I picture myself as an adult when I was small. Things just happened. From high school to STPM to university, every thing was going with the flow, smoothly, with some little obstructions in between.

I would say the age of 21 is a barrier to cross, for me to walk out from the comfort zone and live my own life.

So much were gained and lost in the 365 days.

This is the place I have stayed for more than 1 year. I'd rather staying alone than having different people as roommate every year.

Being the first child means bearing more responsibilities among the siblings. I always have the feeling that baba puts higher expectation on me, and I could never make him down. I was over-pampered as he gives me everything I want. Albeit he did not earn big money to fulfill our every materialistic desires, the love and forgiveness he'd given is far more treasurable. For the first time, on the last day of 2010, I texted him, Dad I love you.

It was miserable to recall what had happened in August last year. I hate it when I have to confront with things I don't like. The way they acted really disappointed me, if they see us as a part of the family, they should have considered how we feel before saying anything or making any decision. This is also the time I realize I have to be mature, to take care of my family.

I had a real heartbreaking period. It's still hurting until now. I tried to fix things back, but ended up circulating the old pathway, there's no way out but to let go. The moral of the story is one can be cruel when they turned their back on you, and when the time comes, you're the only one who can help yourself.

One of the best memories I had is the visits to Children Protection Centre. Giving tuitions to kids can be a great satisfaction especially when seeing the smile on their faces after solving a simple math.

Friendship is another important part of my life. I'm glad we can still sit down in a kopitiam and share many things together after not seeing each other for months. We never get tired of repeating the same old stories and laugh out loud like always. I'm thankful to have them, my friends for life.

A special thank to him, for being a good listener. I know who can I call whenever I'm down, thanks for his patience, I feel comfortable and secure to tell him everything. A friend who is still willing to hear all your problems again and again even though he knows it's the same old stories caused by your own stubbornness is hard to find. It is something that I couldn't find in anyone else. At least I know who is true to me, who's using me for own benefits.

Of course, the new friends from USM are awesome too! Life in university would be dull and boring without them. We went to many places around Penang. Our first trip outside Penang was in Malacca in May. Before last semester ends, we even went to Kuala Kangsar, Seremban, Malacca and Johor during our field trip. And we're so loud, you can even hear us laughing from far away.

1st year 2nd semester result was rather disappointing. I always think I can do better than this. My GPA dropped tremendously which it almost fell below 3. Although academic result is no longer my major concern, but I told myself, I should never let this happened again. You can say I'm kiasu, but it's not me to be a loser to myself. By the end of 2010, my GPA for last semester improved. And got the Dean's list for the very 1st time. =)

Say adios to my long hair! Finally I trim my long hair after 7 years in November. It was kinda strange for me to look into the mirror at first. My cousin said I look younger in short hair. *that's mean I look old back then, sad. This picture was taken before I perm and dye my hair. *credits to baby Samsam the photographer.

2011 is the year I look forward to be a better person. Let bygones be bygones, I somehow feel relieve after walking out from the chaos. So much planning and to-do's in pending.

I'm ready.